The night before...

God, its here faster than i expected

It has finally begun

The surety of unsurety

A life without one

This nausea is killing

I wish i could force this all out of me

Relieve me

I need to feel new again...

...to see the day after the night before.

Who was that?

My dream last night, in random order, was… well…

1. Missed my school bus and was stranded on my flat floor…
2. Forgot to take the documents I should’ve …
3. Entered a strange tourist spot which was meant to be used for Jodhaa Akbar but was created by churning clay and cement. Deeps voice is going on in the background telling me ‘set converted to tourist spot’ etc. And I looked and thought to myself, “THIS has been converted to promote tourism?????” T’was blue grey in color and was porous in nature, almost 16 ft deep and steep but could be walked down easily. I hopped skipped jumped and made my way thru looking for Akbar (hmmm)…
4. Blah blah blah…
5. Finally entered a house, supposedly mine, that looked WEIRD. Was made of plastic and had water on the walls coz of the rain. Neway, I walked into my backyard (I have a backyard????), saw dad barbequing something. Right behind was another boy/man/guy (never seen him before). I walked right to him – he was barbequing as well. He looked up and gave me the warmest smile. While walking towards him, I knew I was happy seeing him – something made me feel that I’ll always have him around. I wrapped my arms around his, returned his smile, stood there for a moment like that and just I was walking away, woke up.

This was not a guy I would’ve fallen in love with; this is a guy I know who cared for me like hell and likewise - almost as if I know him but didn’t really...

I woke up with the most amazing feeling this morning.

Overdose

I'll take one, 'cause I needed to feel it so much
I had an emotional crutch,
but I'm feeling bored so ill take some more
'Cause nothing is happening

Don’t ever think I’ll be a case of overdose; but caffeine has the power to change that.

It's a lil bit funny - this feeling inside...

You think you are so damn important, but you can easily be replaced.
There are so many more like you.
You are the power of numbers, but it isn't in your hands.
Are you sure you can make a real change?

Was it so easy, the termination of your ego for the sake of the "right" mentality of the maze?
How is it to have no options, to be the host of parasites? Are you glad?
You wanted to help, to make me normal and right.
However, you can also use me as an example for your children - a bad example

Guess who'z leaving town???

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……… I’m sooooooooo happy I can cry.

Yea well, I have oversensitive tear glands – what the hell do I do….so plz - TRAP UP.

PS:: The ‘trap up’ was coz I completely trust my blog audience. Smarty pants.